Why do people watch T*C documentaries [600 Po*nd Lif*] or the Sla*on Sisters’ [1000lbs S*sters]? Maybe it was to curb our self-esteem or maybe a source of motivation. I do watch it – in fact, I have it on right now as background noise mostly.

There were different reasons on how I started watching them. For example, I started watching the Sla*on Sisters after coming across a meme post on Instagram. However, watching [600 Po*nd Lif*] had a more deep-seated reason. It was a way for the low esteem I have and also a bit of motivation.

However, as I continue watching them – “No WAY I am letting myself be like them” turned into “Hey, I am still a LONG WAY from becoming like them – I can afford still to stay as I am”.

Whatever motivation I wanted to get from the show had somehow twisted into procrastination and a bit of superiority complex – that I feel a lot better myself at the point I am right now and that I am better than [the participants].

It became a point of inertia – instead of a push I wanted it to be.

Perhaps I should stay away from such shows. However, that mental “safety net” where I feel good about myself after watching someone worse off is too good to stay away from. Of course, I do learn things sometimes too – like how 80% of the time we are in denial and that everything is actually resolved as long as we get out of that denial cesspool.